Today marks the 7th anniversary of John's passing, his death, his transition, or however anyone wants to call it. For me, it is the day I will always remember that changed our lives as we knew it forever.
I went to sleep a happy wife and woke up to being a sad and forever changed widow.
And life has never been the same.
A long time by any count.
But those years have not been static.
I have mourned.
I still do.
I have cried.
I still do, although not always with the same intensity as I did at the beginning.
I have cared for my mother-in-law and watched as she too passed on.
I have said good-bye to precious pets.
And I have lost two close and dear family members - my father and my uncle.
I have watched my mother and my aunt slip into dementia.
I have grown.
I have published a book.
I have learned new spiritual truths I would not have otherwise learned had John not gone on ahead of me.
I have remade John's office into a meditation space I can now enjoy and where I can share that new spirituality with him.
I have made many new friends, drawn as we were by a new understanding of grief.
Some of those friends have become like family to me and for that I am grateful.
I have started a new business with two of those precious friends.
I have reconciled with a brother whose love and friendship I treasure.
So, it hasn't all been sad.
Would I change it?
To have John back would be Heaven here on Earth. But I know that isn't going to happen.
So, I continue forward.
We are here for Love and then we go Home.
That's my focus now.
But in the meantime, I honor John and what we had in the physical and what we have now in Spirit.
See you soon, Sweetheart. I love you.