I was working as Head Nurse on a local psych unit and needed to be available to my staff on off hours. So, I carried a beeper (this was before cell phones became routine). The idea was they would page me when they needed me and I would call the unit to see what I could do to help. This particular Saturday night I put the pager on vibrate and placed it on my dresser as John and I headed to bed. It was late and I didn’t anticipate any calls. John and I spent some time chatting and then lights out. Before either of us dozed off we heard a slight hum in the room.
“John, you hear that?”
“What do you think it is?”
“I don’t know.”
We had been talking a lot about spirits and communication that week.
“Do you think it could be – I don’t know – a spirit?”
By this time, we were both wide awake and I turned on the bedside light.
“Maybe if we talk to it, it will go away.”
"So, we both got up and started talking out loud to this spirit who was somehow trying to communicate to us. I even went outside to see if I could see anything. I have no idea what I thought I would find. But when I came back in John was laughing and holding my pager.
“I found the spirit. He wants you to call work.”
Sometimes a pager is just a pager. *
When we lose someone to death, we desperately want a sign from them that they are all right, that they still love us, that they are still alive. And our loved ones do send us signs but we need to be careful how we interpret those signs and also try not to confuse the sign with the loved one.
What about that cardinal who appears outside your window while you sit at your desk thinking about your loved one? Is that your beloved?
Or the hummingbird who flies around you and hovers in front of your face?
Or the butterfly who lands on your outstretched hand?
All of those are definitely noteworthy and very unusual and could very well be a sign from your person on the other side. The point is if it resonates with you and is out of the ordinary enough to get your attention it is most likely a sign. But one caveat - don't confuse the sign with your person.
That cardinal, or butterfly, or ladybug, etc. is NOT your loved one. They are not inhabiting that creature. They did not turn into an insect. Life on the other side is in a different dimension and the language over there is thought. Instead of becoming that bug or bird, your loved one has learned to communicate in such a way that they are able to influence things on this side so that they can send us birds and butterflies and feathers and coins and any manner of objects to catch our attention. That is how they communicate with us.
I don't claim to know how this works. All I know is that I have heard it from many reputable sources that that is how it's done. Honestly, I don't care how they do it. I'm just grateful that they do. It's the little things that keep us going when we are torn apart by grief.
So enjoy the signs. Know they are meant for you. Don't forget to say "thank you." Just be sure to discern the communications from something that may be just an ordinary feather, coin - or pager.
* excerpted from I Will Never Leave You by Joy Collins